Mary Magdalene, Tuesday November 28, AD 29

I wonder what Jesus is up to now, and how far he’s got.  He must be travelling through Samaria at the moment.  I hope he’s all right.

I feel guilty at not being with him, even though we agreed it was better all round if I held back for a while.  I feel guilty that I feel so happy here on the farm and that I’m losing the will to go and join the mission.  I feel guilty that with the harvest collected and the stores full and Cyrus for company, life is really fun for once.  I feel guilty for writing this.